It's not the thought of going to dinner that scares me. The entire scenario freaks me out. Let's give you a little background here. I'm 19, nearly 20. Probably for the last 5 years (if my maths is correct) I have been in what people call a relationship. Well two, both over a year, one over 2 and a half years. That's a long time. The first one was more of two friends being good friends, and in fact we're still friends. So I never really count that one. The latter, I do count, it's my most recent, it only really ended recently (well months ago) but it saw me through some of my biggest life changes etc... But seeing as I've spent most of my younger years in relationships it's a bit of a shock horror being a single girl. I don't really want a relationship now as I'm too busy to even go and buy shampoo from tescos. I was too busy yesterday that I missed lunch and dinner (to be fair I was working ...) but by the time I had finished I realised everywhere was shut, and all I had eaten all day was some scraps of fudge ... and to be fair to myself once again it was a massive bowl of fudge. But still, I've got a list as long as my arms (and your arms) of things I need/want to do. Trying to balance all of this and a man ... no no no. It would quite frankly be impossible. But regardless of this, I have in fact been invited out for dinner. I freaked out so much that I sort of just haven't replied to the poor chap. Instead I've sort of called for a girls night, and I know they will guide me on the right path, that's what the girls are for. But still I feel sort of bad, I just kind of left him hanging. But what's a girl to do in this situation? I can't just live under a rock forever. Even though in this scenario I would quite like to.
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